I have been accused of feeding people ,but not eating myself ! My sister swears at me for this
I have to admit …it’s true . I do have an eating disorder.It comes and goes .Since high school.
Back then a therapist asked me if I was doing it for a guy ! Hmm …no ! I was 14 when my dad told me I was looking chubby !
Most of my cousins ( on my dad’s side ) except for one are on the tiny side.Including at that time my sister .Hence it made me very self concious ,as I was taking after my mom’s side.One of my aunts toldme ,” You have the broad German shoulders”😦 Not the picture of femininity ,I thought
Part of it, is due to my insulin deficiency .During Pregnancy,is when I gain weight .It’s about the only time it does not effect me because I am more concerned with the babies health .In all my pregnancies I must of also bought several dopplers( as some are more superior then others)to hear my babies heart beats.This occurred after my loss of twins that I became obsessed with hearing the heat beats.
With my son ,when I did not hear the heart beat ( as sometimes catching the heart beat can be difficult ) I rushed straight into triage)… that when I was ready to have him the triage nurse said wow ! Your actually here this time to have your baby lol
What really gave me a scare was my mother !I won’t lie ! She is a fruit loop! Her entire family avoids her ,like the plague !
My oldest nephew uses this to his benefit ! but that is an ugly story in my life.With a nephew who told me that my children ,have taken away part of his inheritance.And that he thinks I had the nerves to have them ! And smiled as he placed my son in danger.He and my mother are written off for LIFE !!!!! I believe in Karma and what you sow bites you several times back in your ARSE !
I realize i spent all my life trying to be accepted by my mom .I forgave her for the most hideous things she has done to me .
But what last occurred was the end of me forgiving both my mom and nephew.And one day when my oldest nephew has kids..I wonder if he would want harm to come to them …as he has laughed and smiled at the harm he tried to place my children in .
(anyway I am getting off topic …)
I use to spend time telling people not to eat my mom’s food.She cooks meat that has turned brown and even once served our family one thanksgiving a turkey she kept in the freezer for 12 years ! We all puked it out ! And we got her to admit it was that turkey she was keeping in the freezer for over a decade( reason unknown )
My husband told me not to touch any food in her house.But not being too mobile …strangely ,because I don’t eat meat ,I had a craving for meat and ate sausage she had in her fridge ! I puked ! I felt the most ill ever . I could not hold up! I went straight to prenatal triage ! I was scared out of my life ! I thought I would loose my son ! turns out I had food poisoning ! I had to drink water all night.they gave me that option to keep drinking water and hydrate myself or stay in the hospital on intravenous . My husband said he would make sure I kept drinking .Which he did .Even when I could not hold up and felt like puking !
My pregnancies have been the only thing that I have beaten my eating disorder for .Now being that I spend my pregnancies on bed rest ,I gain a lot of weight and after I am back with my eating logic .( as I call it )
But I love feeding people ! Can you figure that one out ? I also have so many kitchen gadgets .Even some in multiples.
Okay the part of multiples ,is where my compulsive disorder comes up .Don’t worry my compulsive disorder backs off when I become so sick of having too much .Then in the past what I do is donate them to those who don’t have much .
I love trying out recipes. I am actually holding my sister a May back yard birthday celebration .Having no clue if it will be too cold I have already bought an outdoor fireplace for it .A night of Mediterranean foods.okay mostly Italian ( puglia region ) ,where my in-laws are from .
Then for my daughter’s birthday a week later- it’s Cantonese !!!Being half Cantonese ,it’s a no brainer! My grandfather was a chef in china .I am by far no way as good as he is …but I did get some skill from him
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